mr.charming

Fuck you for telling me you love me
And for saying you wanted to keep me forever.
For kissing me so gently
And molding so perfectly
That I believed our bodies were created to connect.
For talking about our lives together
And sweet talking my mom
Fuck you for being so damn perfect
And gorgeous
And "like me" in every way

What the FUCK were you thinking when you told me you loved me exactly?
Did I hear it wrong? Did it literally slip off your tongue?
I'm sorry I believed you
I'm sorry I fell for you
That it didn't fit into your perfectly organized life
I'm sorry if I have become an "inconvenience"
Do you really feel no pain at all?
Do you really expect to leave me
Figure out your life
And not think about me everyday?
What has the past 2 months meant to you?
I'm sorry I thought we were in a relationship
And all it was to you was a good time.

Fuck you for charming me 7 years ago
Making it impossible for me to forget you
And for creating the illusion that you were finally mine
Fuck fuck fuck FUCK YOU!
Because I know you're not lying.
Fuck you for being so confusing.
Why isn't our love enough?

If you saw me cry would it make a difference?
If I attached myself around your ankle like a child
Would you take me with you?
If I told you I would marry you today
Would you laugh at me?
I've already pictured our life together
Would you believe me if I told you it's wonderful?
That we'll always love each other forever?

Will fighting for you will make a difference?
Or will it only make it harder?
I may not be very intellectual
And I know at times you consider me just a dumb blond.
But I DO know a few things in this life:
I know the world would be a better place if everyone did yoga
I know chocolate heals
And I know I love you.
And always will.
Please don't make me become the old crazy hippie lady
Who lives alone and makes soup
Just eat my soup with me
And love me as I love you
So I can one day FUCK YOU.